Not really a fan of studying.
Ask anyone who knows me — and especially those who have lived with me. I will do anything in my power to keep myself from studying and distract myself and others around me. [which might be why I’m writing this blog right now, actually]
However, since my life-path lately has seemed to be designated as one of a professional student — studying is necessary.
Especially when learning a new language.
- …which maybe is written from the opposite side of the page.
- …maybe is thousands of years old and fairly recently revived.
- …maybe has vowels that were added in later to the text.
- …and which perhaps is the language for which the foundation of millions of people’s faith rely upon.
Again, I say … studying is necessary.
My argument today is that studying, at least how I do it, is an act of faith in itself. Sometimes I start early [this is a rare occurrence and usually only happens if I am procrastinating something that I dislike to a greater degree]. More often, I begin late. Last minute. I get nervous. I gather my people around me. There are at least 3 people who are not taking Hebrew this semester who are, in fact, learning Hebrew vicariously through me. I soak in their help, their advice, their positive reinforcement….
and I practice. I fumble. I practice again. I cry. I laugh. I practice more.
The true act of faith comes when the professor hands me the quiz. There is no guarantee that all the studying I did the night before will grant me a high score on the quiz. It requires faith. Faith in my mental capacity. Faith in memorization. Faith that I actually copied the words correctly on my flashcards. Faith that God is a merciful God who will help me when I don’t deserve it [and really, next time I’ll start earlier … I promise!].
And, more than that.
Faith that says even if I score poorly on this quiz, peace will be offered. Second chances will come. Opportunities will still knock. I will still be here. God will still be here. Faith that says we will always journey together.
Where is faith important in your life?